Where the heck am I? Please READ!

I am so sorry to everyone I'm letting down right now. I'll try to explain. for the last year, I've had stomach issues off and on. It would come through like the tummy flu, I'd be ok for awhile, then it would come back. The last four months it's been way more intense. Two weeks ago I was finally able to eat a real meal after a few weeks of just crackers, bread, peanut butter, juice, water. It's really hard to keep up your strength when all goes down the hill. Since then, it's progressed. Adding a bit of stress hasn't helped. Just when I felt things were starting to grab hold and be better, more chaos.

I ended up in the ER at the hospital Friday. I was miserable, crying, drained and in so much pain. I was so dehydrated I couldn't even pee (sorry TMI moment) to give them a sample. The stress I was in, fed the stomach issues so to speak. Tons of tests, tons of fluids, medications to make it all stop for the most stop. TMI moment two..... I have a UTI that also triggered the tummy issues. Not having the right amounts of fluids staying in caused it. So that made me sicker too. I felt like a pin cushion by then too. It wasn't great....I was released home, and I was able to sleep a few hours. I'm ok off and on, but never for more than an hour or so. They expect me to take antibiotics, but I can't keep them in barely. My regular doc? HA! Try booked out until December! I'm trying to work out how to get in to be seen to see if I can get in to get something regularly for the nausea. 

All in all, I feel like utter facking SHIT. In so many ways. I've cried it seems until I've cried it all out. I sleep but with nightmares. I'm in transition from one doc to another for my fibro shit. It's just a lot to take in and on to be honest. I'm a little better today, But for how long? So every day I have to call in to see if there are cancellations. Honestly, I'd be able to handle the most of it if I could get the throwing up to settle back! Jeesh....

I'm so sorry. I know I owe messages/emails back. I need to send out kits and what not. My goal is to be able to sit down later today or tomorrow at the latest and tackle the to do list. It just depends on the many things that will stay away so I can do that. I'm off to jump in the shower and see if that can relieve some of the stiffness in my body from sleeping on one side for hours lol. I really wish we had a damned hot tub or at least a tub with jets! Those stand up ones you see commercials for? I'd LOVE one of those! Ok totally rambling...hmmm maybe I am better? LOL yeah just a bit.....

Please, please be patient with me. I'm trying, I really am. I promise to bring more goodies as soon as I can. 

With all my heart, ramblings and love....

Shani